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If only you had listened !

Nothing to Lose - II

I'd be lying if I said, everything is awesome and I am doing great. After the heartfelt concern you guys showed me and not to mention the warnings you gave me, not to post any such blogs in the future ... I give up. That would be the last blog you'll ever read that would speak my bad mood. So this 'Nothing to Lose - II' will stay incomplete.

But guys i have to say this. Though at times, I feel lonely, days like these remind me that I am blessed and privileged to have all you guys in my life.

-Sashanka

Nothing to lose - I

The trees gently swaying, just waking up from their slumber; the birds chirping, singing their own magical tune; the crickets shutting up, after a work nicely done; the beautiful smiling face, at starbucks that gave me my coffee... everything was just perfect. I decided to sit on one of those cold granite benches to watch the sun come up. Sipping my warm mocha, I watched the sun brighten up the world around me...

How I wish, the next sentence were filled with all those adjectives to describe, how great it felt, how amazing it was; how soothing it was. But unfortunately... it isn't. I never believed when someone said that, 'the most beautiful things can trigger the worst of memories'. I guess I should have listened to them.

I sat there staring into the sky; scenes of my life flashing by; words I never wanted to hear, ringing in my ears. It felt utterly painful; it felt as if I lost something; as if I myself was lost; as if I didn't know me. I suddenly felt so lonely and scared. I felt weak and sorry. I was angry and helpless.

Not able to comprehend the sudden change of events, I strode back to my car, throwing my coffee away on the way. I switched on the music 'I walk this empty street, On the Boulevard of Broken Dreams ...' I immediately slammed it OFF. And now, as you must have guessed, I was really pissed off at everything, I mean everything; at myself, my life - what I did with it, what I was doing with it, what others did with it.

I quietly drove back home and sat in my couch for a long time ... thinking about all those 'if's in my life. I desperately need to change my mood, how about I write all this up in a blog? may be it will cheer me up!

It didn't.

Hangman

The Death penalty has always been a topic of debate around the world. Is it the right way to punish a human being, who we think does not even have the minimum eligibility to coexist with us in the society on this planet? Scores have asked this question and I might have posed this question to a lot of my friends too.

Do you remember the day when India stood in shame, helplessly releasing a bunch of hard core militants over a hijacked plane in Kandahar? I like many of you asked the question, why did we not kill the terrorists immediately after nabbing them? Why do we have to let them live, to free them later? Why do we have to feed them, guard them. Why do we have to spend the tax payer’s money on these cruel bas*****, who intended to kill my people and take over my country? I was so cross and angry that I advocated death penalty and more stringent laws whenever we had a debate. I would easily win as most of my friends shared my views. But now, I question my thoughts.

Who defined, an offense and its equivalent punishment? If it is the law, how come for an offense like teasing a girl, you could get lucky in the U.S, you could rarely get punished in India and in other countries, you could be pelted with stones? If I were to write the law, I would take things; I saw and felt into consideration. It doesn’t mean it is right. I think a rape crime requires a severe penalty. I mean the victim’s life has been tarnished for life and so has the family the victim belonged to. The culprit not only abused her at that fateful minute, but also has discolored her entire life. I would advocate the severest of punishments for that heinous crime. But our law recommends a nominal fine and a meager 3 years imprisonment, with parole opportunity. Is this right? Why isn’t my thought a law? Is it because I do not have a loud enough voice?

Saudi Arabia and a few other countries are amongst those nations who have the stringiest of laws, to curb corruption and other evils of the society. Their law as simple as punish the wrongdoer so cruelly, that others never even think of doing the same again. Cutting off hands for robbery, flogging for public usage of obscenities, beheading for attempting to catch a glimpse of a girl in her traditional cover-all-but-eyes dress are but a few examples of their crude way of dealing with offenders. Do you support all these?

I empathize with your feelings when you loudly question why the man who killed hundreds of people should be allowed to live. I understand your angst; I understand your sorrow and fear. But if life isn’t in our hands, how can you entrust death into the hands of mere mortals? Please do not get me wrong, I do firmly believe in punishment, in fact rigorous punishment, where the man repents each and every minute of his life for the crime he had committed. But killing this man is not the solace, the victim’s families. It is just not right, because we are not sure if it is right. The man might have been wrongly motivated, maybe pressurized, maybe he is plain cruel. We just don’t know and we can’t do something we can’t take back, is my argument.

Please friends, voice your feelings. It would really be great to know your thoughts.

Fastest Fast

Potti Sriramulu garu, strived for a free Andhra Pradesh and died while fasting. While being quite sure these leaders are not that sincere, I fell off my chair when I read this illogical statement by our minister. I shall wirte my views on Telangana in my next blog. Been a long time since I wrote !!

Why we can never find him

A 'sokh' am

Had a great time with friends waiting for 'the box' to come, in classic indian style. Finally it arrived on a flight in american style. But what a movie, what a waste of time and energy.